seeking time to process

Hmm, life recently has had such a daily quality about it. Which I haven’t decided if that is good or bad yet. In early morning, I just get going, knowing it’s going to be a long day. And as I walk down the driveway from the ranch at the end of it, I know tomorrow will come too quickly.

It seems that all I do is work and seeing that I’m at Starbucks about 27-30 hours a week and then at the ranch another 24 or so, that is pretty accurate. Thankfully I enjoy my jobs for the most part, but it can get a little weary when I feel as though all my free time is spent driving between the two.

But my weekends are generally a time for me to ramp up for the next upcoming week. I will work a bit on the weekends, but it is generally a slower time for me. I even get to sleep in one or two days and lounge on the couch with my book and cup of coffee, which is the perfect way for me to start my day.

It is also the time where I can slow down long enough to process life a bit. I am a processor; it takes me a little time to think through all that has been thrown at me the previous week, to make some sense out of all of it. And writing is one of those ways that I am able to sort through all my thoughts. Unfortunately not much of that writing has made it on the blog, but I’m coming to the last pages in my current journal.

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This past week has been a doozy as far as processing is concerned…

~ One of the girls who I have become so close with this summer has moved back to Colorado for school and a boy. When she arrived in June, I knew she would only be here for the summer months, but I didn’t count on her finding some a comfortable place in my heart. I had been feeling the drought of not having a girlfriend close by who your soul feels so content with, and then Laura felt the call of God to move here for the summer. It’s hard to imagine this place without her here, so things have felt a bit foreign this past week. But God seems to know what He is doing, so I trust Him for who is leading to and from this ranch, and for those He is leading into my life.

~ I kinda went on a date this past week as well. I won’t go into much detail, but it was nice to wake up in the morning and smile because someone might actually like you. I’m not hanging too much on this yet (especially since he tends to disappear for weeks at a time), I’ll have to wait and see what the future holds.

~ I was a part of my first horse rescue on Friday. I’ve seen some of the pictures of the equines that the ranch has taken in, who were on their last few days of life, but I have not actually seen or touched them when they were in that condition. It was just horrifying to look at this animal, so close to death, yet with such a fire in his eyes. I believe this guy will pull through this, but he is quite old and in such terrible condition, it’s not a certainty.

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Tomorrow is Monday and the cycle that I call a week will start all over again. But in the meantime, I am enjoying my lazy Sunday. Thanks God, for making days of rest and for allowing me to savor them!